The wheels are coming off this cart. I'm swollen, hormonal, alternately upbeat and weepy, my belly is springing new stretch marks daily, and every day for the past three someone has asked (after looking dubiously at my belly) if I really think I'll make it three more weeks. My legs keep me up at night due to searing pain and occasional numbness from my sciatic nerves. My hips feel like they may slip out of joint at any moment. I waddle. I'm mind-numbingly tired, but unable to get any really good sleep.
And I bitch. A lot. (In case you've missed it.)
I wish I didn't, but I can't seem to help it lately. This pregnancy has been much harder. I'm trying so hard to enjoy it because it may be our last, but damn, it's hard to enjoy it once you hit this phase.
I bought two simple knit dressed on clearance at Old Navy because even my giant shirts are barely covering my belly and my pants keep rolling down so far that they threaten to embarrass me and total strangers who happen by with a free peep show. The dresses at least look nice and there's no binding around my nether regions.
My best friend is throwing a diaper shower for me tomorrow, which I'm really looking forward to. Beyond that, I think I'm officially at the point where I'd rather hold this kid in my arms than in my belly. I think Hannah's there, too. We made a calendar today to mark of the days until Baby Sister arrives so she'd get a better grip on when this is all going down.
My MIL departed for Buffalo this morning. We won't see her until we go up there in mid-September for a wedding (more on this later... yes, I'm traveling with a seven-week-old and a two-and-a-half-year-old by air). Part of me is very relieved. Part of me is a bit pissed that she didn't stick around to see if she could make a go of it.
Anyway. I think I've bored you enough with my random dribbling. To keep you occupied and responding, I'll offer the following poll:
Which middle name do you prefer?
Emily is the only one with a connection to a real person (my best friend). Other than that, we just like the sounds of these.
*As if to prove how tired and out-of-it I am, I completely left off a name! So there it is, re-vote if needed. And for further information, our last name is monosyllabic, so the multisyllabic middle names wouldn't be a problem. And Caroline will be pronounced how it's spelled, Carol-LINE.